Konyol tapi Mengaggumkan

So, I found this feeling and it's great and it's so clear and it's so bright ... pokonya sangat melegakan. 

Yah.. akhirnya setelah merasa bahwa aq ga sanggup ga bicara, ga ngobrol, chatting taw apaun itu namanya ternyata salah besarrrrrrrrrrrr...haha

Couple days ago when I saw his light green there was something that pulled me to talk to him. Because I thought that I missed him and it was not wrong to back talk to him again and started from first but before that I was in a condition "should I? or shouldn't I?"-dilemma tingkat tinggi antara gengsi dan keinginan untuk mengobrol. You can think what happen next because it's obviously clear that I kicked away that stupid feelings and started talk "Hi" to him.....

God Damn! My heart was totally jumping that time, it was closely on the floor when he back said "heyy". Then I said "wassup?" then he answered then he asked me back then I lost my feeling to talk with him anymore.. Suddenly bored. Sssumpah ga taw apa yang mesti di omongin lagi..padahal kan awalnya keukeuh nih si aq ga bisa ga ngobrol ama dia tapi buktinya setelah itu ..emang ga ada hal yang patut di obrolin. Apa coba..tiba-tiba sekarang pendapat itu lenyap dan sekarang nih ga ada keinginan besar wat ngobrol sama dia lagi. 

Emang konyol sih..nggak nyangka malah jadinya kayak gini. Ini tuh mengaggumkan karena emang jadi plong dan jadi ga perlu takut lagi wat -omigod- dia lupa sama aq. 

legggaaaaaa bangettt....

leggaaa....

Satu hal yang aq dapet dari kejadian ini adalah rasa takut untuk mencoba emang sulit buat di ilangin tapi kalo kita emang punya niat yang kuat kita bakal ga takut untuk mencoba apapun hasilnya nanti dan yang aq lakukan selama ini hanya takut untuk bicara ngomong padahal itu ga sulit sama sekali. 

Hell yeah..!!!konyol tapi mengaggumkan.