LIST TO DO IN 2017 (WISH)

Here we go again!!

In
A new number..
A new day..
A new year..
A new chapter in our life.

If I look back to yesterday when I was turn 25, when it was 2016, so many things had happened. So many things I can take to be the lesson, to not do the same mistake, to be better than before. I realized that not many fun things I could do. I trapped between people in cyber world even I met some of them for real but the rest are we just keep talk and talk over the phone. I trapped in a kind of game that could waste my time from morning to morning.
I didn't regret it but somehow I can do more than that. So, in 2017 I make a list to do.Some crazy activities helped by a wish. ^_^

So far I wrote 20 things to do in 2017... here they are..

1. Voice the cartoon 

2. Lost weight 

3. Give breakfast for 10 homeless 

4. Travel more

5. I have a lot of students 

6. Sing acoustic LIVE!!

7. More relief 

8. Dinner with mom more 

9. I have my own domain web 

10. Workout more 

11. Meet you 

12. Buy a good camera 

13. My online shop grows 

14. Get Driving license 

15. Diving 

16. become a pro to edit video and photoshop

17. Wear clothes to make me happy

18. Buy new laptop :( 

19. Buy mom a thing she really want 

20. Loving myself more :) 

Hope can do all the lists 
Wish the universe helps me to do them.

TIPS MOVE ON DISELINGKUHIN ALA-ALA (based on little research MPM adders)

Hanya karena sebuah hubungan  berakhir, bukan berarti kisah cinta kamu berakhir sampai disitu juga. Saat kamu sudah mencoba yang terbaik, kadang kala kamu hanya butuh ketenangan dengan jalan “move on” jadi kamu dapat melihat apa yang sudah terjadi bukan dengan rasa penyesalan. Putus dengan si dia tidak melulu dipandang sebagai hal yang negatif kok. Ada beribu alasan kamu dan si dia harus mengakhiri hubungan kalian. Apabila salah satu alasannya adalah karena hadirnya orang ke tiga di antara kalian maka kamu sudah membuat keputusan yang tepat saat ternyata tidak ada lagi yang bisa dipertahankan dan kamu tidak mentolerir jenis alasan seperti ini.

Sakit hati? Marah? Merasa tidak terima? Dan kemudian muncul pertanyaan untuk diri kita sendiri; “kenapa?” Apa yang salah dengan diri saya?”  

Sakit hati, marah dan merasa tidak terima adalah perasaan yang wajar karena pada intinya kamu sudah di khianati dan hati kamu terluka. Ibarat kamu sudah menaruh sebuah kepercayaan di dua genggaman tangannya tapi si dia dengan sembunyi-sembunyi malah mengulurkan satu genggaman tangannya untuk orang lain. Tidak perlu mencari tau kenapa dan percayalah tidak ada yang salah dengan diri kamu ketika kamu sudah memberikan yang terbaik dalam hubungan tersebut. Kamu tidak perlu menyesal. Kamu hanya perlu melanjutkan hidup kamu, tidak perlu berlarut-larut dalam sebuah kesedihan, rasa sakit hati, dan amarah. Kamu hanya perlu untuk MOVE ON! 

Move on tidak instan tentu saja! Kamu tidak bisa mengubah rasa sedih dalam sekejap dan proses melupakan itu membutuhkan waktu. Ingat semua butuh proses! Tapi semakin cepat kamu bisa kembali bahagia maka akan semakin bagus untuk diri kamu sendiri. Ada hal-hal yang bisa kamu coba untuk membantu kamu moving on dari si dia.

1.

Makan coklat deh. Secara ilmiah coklat itu mengandung zat endorfin yang memberikan efek tenang dan senang bagi tubuh. 

2.

Coba dengarkan lagu dengan tempo dan irama yang lebih cepat. Lagu-lagu dengan lirik yang positive. Musik dan lirik yang positive tentu akan memberikan response positive juga untuk pikiranmu sehingga kepenatan akan sedikit lebih berkurang. Usahakan hindari lagu-lagu kenangan yang bisa membuat kamu malah jadi semakin galau.

3.

Travelling bisa jadi pilihan yang tepat untuk kamu. Kamu bisa mengunjungi tempat-tempat baru dan bertemu dengan orang-orang yang baru. Menghilangkan penat dan melupakan si dia dengan mengaggumi keindahan yang diberikan Tuhan bisa sangat menyenangkan. 

4.  

Menyibukan diri kamu sendiri adalah cara termudah untuk membantu melupakan si dia. Kamu bisa hang out bareng keluarga dan teman. Shopping sampai kaki kamu pegal-pegal. Menonton film komedi bareng sahabat. Bermain game dan mencoba hal-hal yang belum pernah kamu coba sebelumnya. Bahkan dengan fokus bekerja kamu tidak akan punya peluang untuk mengingat-ingat si dia. 

“People have to forgive. We don't have to like them, we don't have to be friends with them, we don't have to send them hearts in text messages, but we have to forgive them, to overlook, to forget. Because if we don't we are tying rocks to our feet, too much for our wings to carry!”
― C. JoyBell C.

Setuju sekali dengan apa yang ditulis penulis di atas. Inti dari semuanya adalah memaafkan. Kamu tidak harus menyukai dia, tidak harus kembali berteman dengan dia, berhubungan kembali dengan dia, tapi kamu hanya perlu memaafkan, untuk mengabaikan, untuk melupakan. Karena kamu tidak perlu mengikatkan batu ke kaki kamu terlalu banyak untuk dibawa terbang. Cuma jadi beban aja saat kamu mencoba melangkah ke depan. Dengan memaafkan langkah kamu akan jauh lebih ringan dan dada kamu akan terasa lebih lapang.

Jatuh cinta lagi bisa sangat efektif untuk melupakan si dia. Hanya saja jangan terburu-buru. Alih-alih jatuh cinta malah hanya pelampiasan belaka. Percayalah, seseorang diluar sana sedang menunggu untuk menerima jenis cinta yang mampu kamu berikan. Jangan biarkan satu situasi menguasai persepsi kamu tentang cinta dari yang seharusnya. Belajar dari pengalaman dan bersikap dewasalah selagi menyembuhkan hati yang terluka. Masih banyak cowok/cewek yang pantas kamu dapatkan.

Resource Pictures :

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Dearest Karma

Dear Karma...

I would like to say thank you that I don't have to waste my time and my exclusive energy to do something they have done to me. Dearest Karma, you did it for me. 

I've never have any intended to do any revenge to them,I don't at all but sorry to say that I don't forget either. Forgive is another word to show around that I'm okay. Even you know little thing f^kd up is running around in my chest. Deep down letting go is the hardest part. 

Someone said, forgive people is easier than forgive our self. And that's what I'm fighting about.

Oh, anyway do me some favors next time. I would like to have you on top of my friend list friend, Karma. :)

by Bob Morehead

“The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but
shorter tempers, wider Freeways, but narrower viewpoints. We spend more,
but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and
smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees
but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more
problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little,
drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too
little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom. We have multiplied our
possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and
hate too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to
life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but
have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer
space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom,
but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but
accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more
computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we
communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small
character, steep profits and shallow relationships.

These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but
broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway
morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything
from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the
showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can
bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share
this insight, or to just hit delete...

Remember, to spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not
going to be around forever. Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks
up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave
your side.

Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the
only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.

Remember, to say, "I love you" to your partner and your loved ones, but most
of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from
deep inside of you.

Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person might
not be there again. Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to
share the precious thoughts in your mind.”
― Bob Moorehead

Sunrise

I forgot how beautiful the morning that I missed everyday. I forgot how fresh the morning and its warm when the sun is up. I forgot to see that a little thing could be the most wonderful thing in this world.

Forgive but Never Forget

Dapat cerita menarik saat les, dari sebuah narrative di lembar kerja siswa. Sebuah cerita tentang seorang temper boy. Cerita berakhir dengan perkataan sang ayah kepada anak tersebut,

"You have done well, my son, but look at the holes in the fence. The fence will never be the same. When you say things in anger, they leave a scar just like this one. You can put a knife in a man and draw it out. It won't matter how many times you say 'I'm sorry', the wound is still there. A verbal wound is as bad as a physical one." 
("Kau melakukannya dengan baik anakku, tapi lihatlah lubang di pagar tersebut. Pagar itu tidak akan lagi menjadi sama. Saat kamu mengatakan hal-hal daram kemarahan, mereka meniggalkan bekas luka seperti itu. Kamu bisa menancapkan pisau lalu menariknya begitu saja. Tidak peduli berapa banyak kamu minta maaf. Luka itu masih ada. Luka akibat kata-kata sama buruknya dengan luka fisik.")

Menarik bukan? Itulah kenapa seseorang pernah berkata "I forgive you but never forget (Saya memaafkan kamu tapi tidak pernah melupakannya) karena sebuah luka akan selalu ada disana, berbekas. ^^

A Note for Friends

Hi teman, apa kabar kalian hari ini?

Bagaimana keadaan disana?

Lagi pada sibuk apa?

Maaf belum bisa menyapa kalian setiap hari seperti ini, ada 1 hari, 24 jam, 1440 menit yang kemungkinan dari angka tersebut bahkan tak kupakai 1 angkapun untuk mengetik satu dua kata kata untuk bertanya kabar pada kalian.

I’m feeling such a badass, bukan tipikal teman yang baik. Bukankah kita sudah berteman sejak 7 tahun yang lalu. And I’m feeling that I’m not worth it for the ‘sahabat’ label.

Bagaimana bisa aku jadi sahabat kalian jika bahkan dalam tujuh tahun ini aku benar-benar belum mengenal kalian. I know you. But I don’t know who are you.

Aku seperti menempatkan persahabatan kita pada sebuah kamar dalam kotak-kotak yang telah kususun rapih dengan label tertentu. Label untuk kamar kita adalah tawa dan kesenangan. Itulah kenapa aku tidak mengerti sisi lain dari hidup kalian karena yang kulihat dan kudengar adalah gelak tawa riuh dari candaan dan segala macam kesenangan yang telah kita bagi.

Salahku juga memang karena mungkin label untuk yang lain telah kutempelkan pada kamar-kamar lain yang diisi orang lain atau bahkan kamar itu tak pernah kubiarkan terbuka, sehingga tak pernah ada yang tau kalau label itu ternyata ada.

Dan yang terburuk mungkin aku terlalu menutup mata. 

Dimana aku ketika kalian mungkin ingin berkeluh kesah? Dimana aku ketika mungkin kalian hanya membutuhkan sandaran bahu ketika ingin menangis? Dimana aku ketika mungkin kalian hanya membutuhkan sesorang untuk mendengarkan tentang mimpi konyol, ataupun besar yang kalian miliki? Seorang teman yang tidak akan menertawakan, dan tidak menjudge tentang kesalahan yang telah diperbuat, tapi seorang teman yang akan tersenyum dan memberikan tangannya sambil berkata, “Tidak apa-apa. Everything’s gonna be well.”

And I’m feeling such terrible that I can’t do all those things to you. 

What is the definition about the friendship itself? I’ll say laugh and having fun, or I don’t know. It seems wrong in anyway.

Forgive me that I’m a fool to know nothing about friendship.

But if you are feeling comfortable with the label in the room I’ve made, and all those things we’ve been trough, I’m glad.  

Hari ini berasa moody

Keadaan disini panas banget

Aku lagi sibuk skripsi. Lol 

Copy-Paste then Try to Understand

Dear Future boyfriend,

I want you to be my best friend, point blank plain and simple. I wanna be goofy and dorky with you. I wanna be able to tease you and have fun with you. Crack jokes and call you names and do stupid stuff with you. As long as I’m with you and we’re both smiling. We can do whatever but I want that best friend type relationship with you, that’s all. We can tell each other everything and anything and no matter what happens, any fight or argument, we work it out and we continue loving each other. I don’t wanna yell at you and call you names when I’m angry. I’d rather sit down with you and talk about what there is that we need to fix if we wanna be with each other cause that’s what couples do right ? They make sacrifices for each others happiness and for the sake of their love. I will do everything for the time God keeps our relationship going, to keep you happy. Don’t ever want to lose you over some bullshit. 

Every girl has their wishes for their each relationship. 

                              Some want to be perfect and some just want it flows like the way it is. 

      It doesn't mean impossible to have like what someone wrote above. 

                It's up to you want to bring yours where. 

                                                                                                              Just make it! 

       But still you can't force everything like what you want. 

The Main Casts of KKN

Aneh dan serba terburu-buru awalnya, seminggu selepas PPL harus kembali disibukan oleh kegiatan percobaan kampus yang disebut KKN. Tetek bengek PPL aja belum kelar masih harus mengurus kegiatan KKN, jadilah segala preparing perihal KKN terbengkalai membuat saya jadi orang yang terlihat tidak perduli sedikitpun tentang KKN-well, setengahnya memang benar.

Tidak akan membahas tentang kampus bukan juga kegiatan tentang KKN tapi ini tentang orang-orang yang telah menjadi bagian dari hidup saya selama satu bulan itu. Dalam satu atap berbagi rasa senang, sedih, emosi, romansa cinta, tawa, dan lain-lain.

Saya akan mencoba memperkenalkan mereka satu persatu dan mencoba untuk mendeskripsikan mereka dari sudut pandang saya. Punten-punten nih kalau kesindir. hahahahaha

Dimulai dari Ibu negara alias ketua kelompok 33,
1. Ice 
"She's kinda though person, emotional, and moody."

2. Yessi (Masjid)
"My roommate! she's my best friend ever!"

3. Wini
"Kecil tapi makannya banyak! jealous sometimes, hahaha. Sangat bersahabat terutama sama anak-anak."

4. Eliyah (kaos kaki edan)
"Cantik dan jago masak. Sempet salah perkiraan di awal tapi ternyata kita bisa jadi dekat."

5. Aena (Neng)
"Paling baik, a bit childish. Cutest."

6. Mely
"She's funny and nice. I like the way she talks. Boyband em! hehehe"

7. Siska
"A bit mysterious, so far she's nice enough."

8. Suci
"Kreatif...!"

9. Ditha (wong sugih)
"Kalau bicara pasti semangat :) I like the way she talks too, apalagi kalo lagi ngobrol sama teh Mely. RAME :)"

10. Mus (Muzdalifah)
"Ini orang ko bisa ya lucu banget..cara bicaranya apa adanya dan tanpa jeda."

11. Irma (Mba Ir)
"Pendiem, polos, nice."

12. Rusi (biting)
Rame nih anak ternyata, apalagi kalo ngobrol sebelum tidur."

13. Epih
"Ibu muda......"

14. ME
"Ah, masa ngomongin diri sendiri. hehehe. Komen aja deh seperti apa saya dimata kalian."

Nah...waktunya cowok-cowok bumbum nih. hahaha

15. Bang Eko
"Tempat curhat anak-anak kayaknya sekaligus orang pertama yang kena semprot perihal hal yang di curhatkan. Suka Galau masalah cewek matre."

16. Kak Oban
"Pmeikirannya nyeleneh (sakarep dewek) tapi bisa jadi penengah yang baik. Suka Galau juga di Facebook.

17. Wawan (Acang)
"Baik sih tapi.....................baik kok."

18. Firly
"Ojegnya anak-anak tah? hahahaha."

19. Dede
Boyband em! Metroseksual banget. Aduh bawel banget kalo lagi ngeluh....cakepnya ilang deh -_-. hahaha"

20. Dodi
"Misterius banget. Terakhir terungkap kalau dia galau jugaaa, hahahaha mamang Galau."

Sudah cukup. Pandangan saya tentang mereka hanya sebatas apa yang saya ungkapkan di atas. Berdasarkan apa yang saya lihat dan saya rasakan selama satu bulan itu.

Terima kasih semuanya. Terima kasih telah menjadi bagian dari memori saya.
Peace yo!

What I have to do is dismiss you

And all those words I tried to write

And all those brave I tried to come out

And all those fears I tried to keep in

And all those things have to be nothing

Six years passed by since I met you there

You walked by in front of me and I can smell your move came down slowly

I was captivated in every corner of your voices

You were standing there and I acted stupid to catch your attention

Irritated me with your girl in every way I walked around

Here, there.

Was it romance? Or it was a girl who just too much dreaming

You are my present, and hope for a gift

You lost your girl and I ready to come in

We talk sometimes behind our sit till the night come late

Was it love? Or a girl who just to much dreaming

And I hope too much, expected more that it should be

And every word, every brave, every fear just my present

And you are not my gift.

Dismiss you is the hardest thing I’ve ever do

For this six years I’m waiting for you

For this earth that miss the rain

For all those things I’ve tried to do

Story about PPL part 2

Okay, I don't know exactly if I was embarrassed or it was just kind of her concern to me, but all I know that I was feeling so ashamed when she interrupted.

Starting when I teached about Past Continuous Tense.
I asked every student, "What was I doing at 11 pm?"
Some of them answered it right until one student answered, "You was sleeping at 11 pm."
Then I said, "OK. Your friend answered-you was sleeping ........"
Then she interrupted me, "OK listen student! What Miss. Windy said is right that 'you' is followed by was but it is used in informal situation but we are learning about formal situation. So, Miss. Windy what you said is not wrong but it's not quiet right. 'you' is followed by....'were'."

When she was talking I just really wanted say that I'm not finish yet but I didn't interrupted her because I know that I didn't have any right to interrupted her.

I wish she knew that when I said, "OK. Your friend answered-you was sleeping ........" I was not finishing yet. I would say "OK. Your friend answered-you was sleeping ........what do you think? is there something wrong about what he said? Remember that 'I' is followed by was but 'you' is followed by 'were'."

I wish that she didn't interrupted me. I wish she listened me until I finished it. I wish I have never said wish.

I didn't need to feel so ashamed in front of my student.

My positive mind told me maybe it's kind of her concern/care to me to make me became a good teacher.
Hey, mind! I wish you right. 

Story about PPL

PPL, maybe for some of you who study in educational course, this kind of thing isn't something new. We get experience, and story, and every story must be different. Mine is the complicated one, I mean, it's not always fun all the time but also bad, sick, and irritated. It sounds like I got more pain than happiness. LOL. It's not false at all.

This time, I won't share about the bad thing I got from PPL but it's just a part of story that I found. 

Well, it's about the examination of PPL. A teacher told my friend about her experience when she was PPL. She said that when exam she conspired with the students to make her looked good when she was teaching, she told about the questions to the students to make them ask her. Then I think, whatta silly her or everyone who had ever do that when PPL exam. In my head when a teacher do something like that, it means that she/he failed to be a teacher. Because when exam that teacher to be will be measured her/his ability how to be a good teacher, systematically or not. How could she/he can face the reality when she/he to be a real teacher.

What are you going to be next? What kind of teacher are you going to be? 

 Don't you think all this kind of PPL is useless?.....when you are cheating.....

Well, me nor you aren't one of them. I wish.

I'm just saying what my head think.

Another Sky

It's taken on my friend's ride when the sky getting its twilight. I love do that. Catch so many sky pictures but my only one problem is the camera, it's bad anyway. But still it can't stop me to catch more.

Once more, be sensitive to all the things between us. They served a lot pretty things even you can't see it directly.

What umbrella today on our head

 what cool fan it blows our skins

 what they hide under our feet. 

Note this !!

Saying sorry first which is MENGALAH bukan berarti KALAH. 

Cheers!!! \^_^/

New Year 2012

Happy New Year 2012 !!

In the end of the year I felt so glad and got undescription feeling. ^_^

Let's check what I've got this year...

uhmmm...htinking

uhmmmm..thinking

I think A LOT but not very big deals, I mean like little things. 

I've got a lot, bad or good, thanks to God -Allah SWT for giving me all those things. If they were a bad things maybe I should do something better in this year that make me will get more good things. I've learned much bout yesterday so, it's time to make a new progress . I don't wanna make a checklist bout that but just let it happen and make them as my surprise as what I do. 

So, should we be a new us in the new year?? I think you knew the answer.

Always My Skies

On my way for buying dinner. We've never expected that sky has a beautiful surprise on my head. We've just to be more sensitive with around us, on top, behind, between, even under our feet. ^_^

On the bus when on my way from my hometown with some friends....

my another sky

just say...

Im feelin so mad tonite...
I don't wanna confess that it was kind of envy..but I couldn't even understand...

Im thinking  that Im mad bcoz you made some friendship with some mines..I didnt know how it happen..but Im too irritated that I have to say I don't wanna you go from me.., they have that what I don't, they talkative, so friendly, n Im afraid you turn away from me and find the real fun with them..
how stupid Iam..!!!

how could I think that... you have your freedom..of course..
then why you always be my reason to open my mobile and lookin for your name..??
It's silly, oke...

but one think that make me realized,that you have your world and I have my own..I don't wanna spread it larger
I'll keep it save...

just wanna say.. thanks to God for everythings..everythings..
even not that person...

SATNITE AT WARKOP ;D

Satnite at coffee shop..!!!!walau asli kurang lama tapi cukup menyenangkan, yah paling nggak kan kita bisa isi malming kali ini dengan jalan" keluar…:D

Sounds that we are nerd that never known the nite world, mostly kita emang paling suka ngerem di kamar kosan belajar sok nerd..hahaha, padahl sih Cuma gara-gara ga ada kendaraan aja,,our public transportation Cuma beroperasi sampe jam setengah delapan aja…,!bayangin donk..telat dikit aja kita terpaksa harus jalan kaki pulang ke kosan atau keluar banyak duit wat bayar becak..iirrrgghh…, jadi kita Cuma bisa keluar sore"..itu juga kalo salah satu dari kita g ada yg sbuk kuliah neh…mpe menjelang maghrib..xixixi

Aslinya 2 sobatku yg cantik" n narsiss abis ini ga tlalu doyan kopi, keliatan aja…kopi mereka berdua yang paling manissss,, padahal kan kita kan uda manis jadi ga perlu yang terlalu maniss, haha *iklan banget*

Pas pulang si punya rencana wat jali" lagi ke tempat baru yang ga kalah serruuu…, ga taw sih kapan..hehe

But I hope that our next destination , ga kalah heboh dari kongkow di coffee shop ini,,,hehe

Jadi ga sabarrrr… ^_^

my vanilla twilight

have you ever looked at the sky in the summer afternoon and suddenly found a beautiful set on it??
I did!!! I found it in my way to somewhere, I was feelin' so excited that I could see the beautiful sky everrrr, more than thousand stars in the night sky I think...!!
mostly you just let it pass by and keep goin'..but try to look sky on your head sometimes.. you never realized what will you find..^^,

langit memang selalu punya cerita untukku, entah itu kemarin, hari ini atau esok..