What I have to do is dismiss you

And all those words I tried to write

And all those brave I tried to come out

And all those fears I tried to keep in

And all those things have to be nothing

Six years passed by since I met you there

You walked by in front of me and I can smell your move came down slowly

I was captivated in every corner of your voices

You were standing there and I acted stupid to catch your attention

Irritated me with your girl in every way I walked around

Here, there.

Was it romance? Or it was a girl who just too much dreaming

You are my present, and hope for a gift

You lost your girl and I ready to come in

We talk sometimes behind our sit till the night come late

Was it love? Or a girl who just to much dreaming

And I hope too much, expected more that it should be

And every word, every brave, every fear just my present

And you are not my gift.

Dismiss you is the hardest thing I’ve ever do

For this six years I’m waiting for you

For this earth that miss the rain

For all those things I’ve tried to do

Melati Biru ( Blue Jasmine )

Kupungut lidahku.

Dalam anak sungai yang mengalir.

Lalu aku tanam.

Pada celah rimba.

Dan aku mendengar kidung.

Sayup tertelan ombak keriput.

Dari laut menuju ke laut.

Dari karang bersentuh ke karang.

Dari nyaring suaraku ke seberang sana.

Jauh tertinggal satu kelopak melati biru.

Beralun kidung, tertelan ludah ku.



I picked up my tongue.
 
In the creek that flow.
 
Then I planted.
 
At the slit jungle.
 
And I heard the songs.
 
Waves swallowed faint wrinkles.
 
From the sea towards the sea.
 
From touching the coral reef into another.
 
 A loud voice from the other side.
 
Far behind the blue jasmine petals.
 
Roll songs which swallowing my spit.

 * taken from my sista's old diary that I found under her bed.... :D

smile and arise!

If you feel so much pain there and I don't know how much deeper it is

I can only pray to God
not for injuring it but to cover it
I will pray to God and

said thank you because you got what you've done wrong 

it was your consequences
I knew it sound bad .. 

but I want you to learn to be a better person.
Who can appreciate people around you....

Smile, and arise!

What I've got on My Mind

Remember when I saw your face,

On those autumn with the space,
I saw your smile,
then I realized you'll make my day perfect.

You said Hi !
Im waving hand in the distant,
Hoping you'll see me in different way.

You said, let's make us regard as friend!
Keep d0in' something even miles miles away.
Everything goods seems beautiful,
dancing on the screen share many things.

At once, in the silence evening,
summer at your place got rain in my side,
told the jokes like we armed in armed t0gether.

We broke the limit.

N0ne care bout the damn time z0ne.
We had these !
And see ! You made my day perfect.
Until...
At least, you have ever made it perfect.

Remenber Me

When u feelin' that winds blowin ur hairs..

that's me..,

When u feelin that winds running faster..

maybe I'm Mad.., 

When u feelin that winds go away..

maybe I'm sad.., 

When u smiling arrounds the winds..

I'm the one who watch u between the leafs.., 

I'm touchin u with this winds.., 

Remember me as me..

as winds..

coz I'm Windy n u r not dust.

NONE

None will love me when I'm crying..

None will love me when I'm smiling or even laughing...

None will love me when I'm walking...

None will love me when I'm talking..

None will love me just the way I am..

Stupid thing when thinking someone will love me just the way I am...

Someone will love me when I'm crying, smiling, laughing, walking, talking..

None will love because NONE WILL...