January 5th

Yesterday
I waited for your friends to walk away
So I could say just what I mean

I know we're moving fast
We're running from the past
I'm holding on before it fades away

Could it be that maybe it's our first mistake
And Baby that's alright
It's crazy how we lost ourselves tonight
There's a reason why they say that we should give it time
But time is not enough
And that's the reason why
When you're young you fall in love *)

Everybody made mistake and so did we. I couldn't belive how much I go far away from you and how much girls I met I'll go back to the first time I stand and open my arm for the same girl I use to love. 

You just have to understand that every tears you drop is not worth it. For the same guy you think belong to you. Hell no! second chance just made once and now I won't let it you give him more. 

But I'm sorry for the kiss I gave. A kiss that's not only stop your tear but also make you run and tried to deny something we have. Give us time. I know for sure. 

*The click five - The reason why 

23 Oktober 2011

I thought that love is easy but I’m wrong. I thought I can start it with every girl that I met or the girls around me but it seems that God just made me a good person enough that make me just love one person in the rest of my life. I thought that I can forget her because I knew that she doesn’t love me as a men, she just love me as a best friend.

Badly I don’t know how to erase this feeling or make myself used only with you as a friend. 

You maybe think that I’m the weirdest guy ever. I don’t mind. Because I know sometimes love makes us weird even stupid. 

So, I turned off my phone. Rode my car anywhere it brought me, unconciously came at a place with a stranger. There just a hill like floors upper the town with the lights. Such a perfect romantic place but she weren’t here. 

At that time one flash light surprised me. A girl with a polaroid in her hand smiled at me. I don’t know it would be a good sign for me or not but I didn’t want to loose any chance so, I smiled back at her. Could she change my mind?

16 Oktober 2011

October 16th

I know what you thinking...yep! These flowers are so pretty like her..
But today was not pretty as well,,
Felt like thousand thunder in the daylight when she said with her beautiful smile that her boy came back to her, said much apologize with the pretty song that couldn't she ignored because she knew and I realized that she loved him more than her and I know....
DAMN!! not my day. And you are not my lady.
PHEW!!
I just let these pretty flowers hide behind my back until she took her step like a happy dancing swan left me, then I drop them.

I felt so..I don't know how to explain it.....but it's a bit hurt.

15 Oktober 2011

15 Oktober 2011

I can't fight this feeling any longer
And yet I'm still afraid to let it flow
What started out as friendship has grown stronger
I only wish I had the strength to let it show

And even as I wander I'm keeping you in sight
You're a candle in the window on a cold dark winters night
And I'm getting closer than I ever thought I might

And I can't fight this feeling anymore
I've forgotten what I started fighting for
It's time to bring this ship into the shore
And throw away the oars
Baby, I can't fight this feeling anymore

I love this girl, a girl who can break any rules of my life about our friendship. A girl who ran trough into my heart without knocked before. I know it's wrong because we committed just to be friend but my feeling has grown stronger. 

Yesterday she came to my house with tears on her face. She said about her boy but I just heard them like blah..blah...blah because the only thing that I care was not him but her. I just really want to said to you to kicked him out of your life because he didn't deserve for you but I knew I didn't do it coz I was keeping your heart that maybe you urghh.. still had his name in your head. 

5 minutes ago she was here, was sitting next tome. I made her laugh, I made her know that world was beautiful...always although something bad happen. I really want to hug her not friendly hug...but full hug. Then her smiled before left, made some moving lips for our lunch tomorrow. 

Maybe I will give her roses or any beautiful flowers. Maybe something that will make her forget him..ah, never so excited like this. 

Just wait what happen next..